uggg!!!

It's late and I'm completely uncomfortable in my own body!!! Not to mention, I bought new sheets from Penny's the other day (500 thread count) that were soft until I washed them so now I'm laying on scratchy sheets with a snoring husband cuddled up to me which would usually be sweet but right now its just making me hot (sweaty hot not hot hot)! I just wish it were morning so that I could re wash these sheets and this time with vinegar to get rid of any trace of sizing chemicals that manufactures use during the packaging process. Until then I'll just keep watching Dan In Real Life and surf the web for the perfect diaper bag until I pass out!!!

Bury My Heart

I'm finally getting around to watching Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee. It makes me sad. My grandmother is Native American, it makes me smile everytime I look at her picture. Her facial features are as strong as her will.

My grandmother and I



My grandparent's adopted my mom through the catholic church, which would explain why I am so Irish and have no Native American features! Growing up I could only see myself in pictures of my mother and in my little sister. As gratefull as I am to my grandparent's for adopting my mom, I'm glad Hadley will be able to look at pictures of his grandparents, aunts, uncles, and great grandparents and see himself in them.

I went by Amy's last night, she's living in the house in the woods now, and it's decorated so "grown up". I told her I felt bad because she has a runner in her hallway and I have never gotten one! She even put together floral arrangments!!!

I'm going to try to focus on coming up with a "holiday" collection for the two stores that are going to carry my infant clothing and accesories line. I just get so preoccupied with Hadley stuff!!! I am so excited to think of Halloween!!! I know he is going to be a star wars character becasue of his daddy, but we aren't sure which one just yet!

This movie is getting harder and harder to watch, but it's good.

HD's 3D Sonogram!!

Hadley's Room!!!

We still have loads to do, but it's getting there!!!

Oh what a day!!!

Amy and I spent the afternoon at TJC registering for school. Not for myself but for her and Ryan (he's slowley wanting to get his masters!). I was suprised at how many parent's where there with their kids to register. Mine came with me to "visit" the campus but not to register. After today I had definatly decided I do NOT miss being that age at all (18-21). I can't even take pm meds without paying for it the next day, let alone all night parties and drinking binges. It was fun to look and listen to all the people. I thought I would be a little jealous of their "freedoms", I remember right before Ryan graduated he went through a phase where he was terrified of being a "grown up" and having "grown up responsiblities". I think its normal, especially when your at such a big crossroads in your life. Sometimes I catch myself missing how carefree Ryan and I used to be before we moved to Tyler. I blush thinking of the things we would do! But then Hadley just has to kick my bladder and I'm immideatly pulled back to the present time and beyond happy at where our lives are going now! My little sister (in law) just turned 18, thats how old I was when Ryan and I had started dating. I'm so excited for all the things she is going to experiance when she goes away to school (even if it is A&M)! As for those feelings of jealousy they lasted for about five minutes!

A few shower pics!

Our shower at my parent's house in Flower Mound. It was the typical afternoon shower! Ryan, Justin, Steve and my dad being the only guys and hiding upstairs watching football in the movie room! Yes that is the cast on one leg and the boot on the other and I know we are wearing pink but having a boy lol!

Ryan and his Arie opening gifts!


Ryan and his girls! Notice Arie does NOT like to share!!!


Ryan and his girls again!























Our Couple's shower in Tyler at Ryan's parent's house! I don't have many pics because it was more of a big party and we forgot all about using our camera!!

My Body Hurts!!!

Ryan and I had a Drs apt at 8am this morning to meet with our new pediatrition!!! He seems like a great guy and everyone has highly recomended him, of course Ryan just loved him right off!! I on the other hand take a little more convincing, in my mind I am putting my child's life in your hand! This comes with very high expectations, but I think in the end he's going to be perfect for us!

This bedrest crap is realy starting to get to me!! I'm so so bored, thank god for internet shopping!! I at least get little things in every once in a while to give me somthing to fiddle with for a while! Today I went a little crazy on www.hardcandy.com, they have all of their stuff 75% off and I'm a huge fan of their lip glosses!!

I'd love to get some laundry done but I'm waiting on a plumber :( Something is wrong and the washing machine backflows into our guest bathtub anytime I run it. I'm starting to think that a kitty crawled into this pipe opening we have outside and maybe clogged up the pipes. I've since checked the opening and made sure its sealed.

Well my whole body aches so I'm going to get back to being lazy!!!

I LOVE rainy days!!!

So I decided to get out of the house today (bed rest is enough to drive you mad!) and do the car things I hate doing, i.e. getting my oil changed and whatnot. Rainy Days are perfect for this there wasn't a line ANYWHERE!!!! I'm going to start working on more onsies and diaper bags there are two stores here in Tyler that are going to carry them, I'll keep you posted!!! Its just getting harder and harder to get up close to the sewing machine lol! We had our Flower Mound baby shower the weekend before last and I'm just now downloading the pictures from it, of which I will never post because I'M HUGE!!! Ryan came to my Dr apt with me yesterday because I'm being monitored for preeclampsia and he doesn't think I'm eating enough. At which point Dr. L said I'm right on track of gaining enough weight and whatever I'm doing is working. I still haven't broke the 140 mark but I feel like I should be at about the 300 pound mark!!


My brother is being deployed on the USS Comfort (which is a medical ship) to Georgia (he's a navy core man). It is a humanitarian ship, but its just scary to think about. Hopefully Russia will pull out before he gets there. He won't be able to come home and visit before he leaves so it'll be another three months at least before I can see him again. I'm so proud of him but I'm also heartbroken, I miss my little brother.

I feel terrible, I woke up around 3am and starting cleaning which woke up Ryan. Did I mention what an amazing hubby I have, if I am awake he's awake with me. I love being married, everyone should try it. Sure its been ruff, but at night when we are laying in each other's arms it's all worth it. This pregnancy has brought us closer together, we are definitely each other's soul mates! Sorry for all the mushy stuff its just part of being prego!

FIN

The bun is just about ready to come out of the oven and I CAN'T WAIT!!!! I know I'm going to miss being pregnant but I know I'll love being a mommy ten times more!! I feel like I should have rainbows coming out of my ass I'm so happy and excited!!! I have this amazing husband who adores me and would do anything for me, and stays with me no matter how hard I've tried to push him away. A kickass family (on both sides) who love me for me and knows how to cheer me up!!! And a great circle of friends some from childhood that have never let me down and are just as excited about Ryan and I being parents as we are ourselves. Life is AMAZING!!!